gumption

Time passes slowly
I sit and do nothing
and nothing wants done
I gain inertia.....
just resting
there's nothing I want to do
I've read Ecclesiastics
with nothing new under the sun
there's nothing that l want to do
then I pray dear Father
don't let me waste away
don't let me fade to gray
Parkinson's affects everything
and my gumption simply slips away
I have nothing else to say

Mirror of Souls

I look into the mirror of souls
see thousands of my reflections
each in their own dimension
all are me or used to be
they are my evolution
images of my time progression
with several metamorphosis
there is a lot of growth
as I grew from child to man
slowly I began to see
and even slower to understand
the truth in who I am
as God created me
to grow and come to know
the love God has for human kind
a peace flows to my mind

I Weep

It's late
can't sleep
I lay in pain
I close my eyes
and pray.....
God sustains
He strengthens me
then gives me vision
that I may see
God loves me
gave His Son
to die for me
I weep
joyful tears
thankful tears
I know God loves me
My life and pain will end
but I will rise and be with Him
once again

Sleep

My songs are over
I linger on
with Parkinson’s
waiting for death to come
my arms mechanical things
have lost agility
and at times I weep...
I pray dear God
forgive my sins
You have my love
please help me fall asleep

Some Days I Win

Parkinson’s retains me
painfully
takes all I have and more
all I am living for
some days I win
other days it does
but I am saved by love
from my wife
and from God above
God sustains me
gives all I have
He gave me life
and my wife

I Try To Listen

I pray
which means I ask God for things
and try to listen
but this world gets in the way
I sleep
then dream of dreams
the subjects which
I could not say
I breathe
each breath I take
shortens life in other ways
I shake
can’t grasp the things
as I did just yesterday
Parkinson’s disease
it will lead me to an early grave
and the tears fall down my face
I cry
wondering why I have to die
this slow lingering painful death
my arms shake can’t take a breathe
I wonder by
and again I pray
asking God for things
and I try to listen

God Answered

I feel at peace
at ease
released
God answered me
I feel loved
tonight my Parkinson's
it doesn't matter
is this a touch of grace
and I pray
thank You Lord
thank You

Dream

In rarified sleep I dream
spirits teach the universe to me
I learn physics and cosmology
of quarks and relativity
then more about God's majesty
that this existence our reality
is sort of like a hatchery
where our spirits get to grow
where our souls come to know
the love God has to show
for that which He has made
the stars skies seas and land
then in His image man....
a love so strong He sent His Son
to pay our debt for sin
that when our lives are done
through faith we are born again
the whole of the universe knows
that our God simply is
and through Jesus we are loved
and the Spirit comes to teach
that God through faith we reach
here they end my dreams

Because

we seek to understand
that Jesus is as He is
Son of God and Son of Man
and we are simply His....
so we ask of them-
let Your Spirit live in us
we are Yours God's
You created us
any more then that
I do not want to comprehend
so I ask of You God and Jesus
may our hands bring You glory
may our tongues tell Your story
that our hearts become holy
as our bodies turn to dust
help us grow in love
because of faith in You Jesus

PAIN

pain
intense pain
muscular strain
stiffness in your legs
caused by Parkinson's
you know life
this strife
feeling so bad
you can't sleep tonight
restless you move each leg
looking for the place
without pain
and you pray
then sometimes tears flow
you lay there feeling sorrow
it will get worse tomorrow
and it will never go away
so you close your eyes
to pray....
Asking God
is there an easier way
but then you ask of Him
to live your life
by His will, His way
then the pain begins to fade
though it will never go away