I Try To Listen

I pray
which means I ask God for things
and try to listen
but this world gets in the way
I sleep
then dream of dreams
the subjects which
I could not say
I breathe
each breath I take
shortens life in other ways
I shake
can’t grasp the things
as I did just yesterday
Parkinson’s disease
it will lead me to an early grave
and the tears fall down my face
I cry
wondering why I have to die
this slow lingering painful death
my arms shake can’t take a breathe
I wonder by
and again I pray
asking God for things
and I try to listen